Well, only 4 more days before a whole new journey starts.
I've had my Endoscopy and everything was fine, and I've also had my ultrasounds on my liver and pancreas and I dare say I will hear about those results when I see my surgeon on Wednesday. So, it's all systems go by the looks of things.
I can't stop thinking about it and the changes it's going to bring for me.
I can already feel my confidence growing and even the negative comments I am still receiving, thinly veiled with "but I do support you" comments, are not having any effect on me now. I am so determined.
My whole life I have let everyone else control me and lived for everyone else, don't get me wrong, there were occasions where I put myself first, but very few and far between, it's not how I was raised. Where did it get me? Walked over and taken for granted.
That won't be happening any more. I'm slowly but surely taking back my power. I have always been great at empowering others and encouraging others, well now it's time to take a dose of my own medicine.
These are some photographs of me from the last couple of years. Reminders to myself of why I am going to put my body through this.
They don't show the painful part, the emotional reasons, they don't need to, I know that part inside. I have put on another 15kg since these were taken, then lost, then put on another 10 and so on it goes.
I turn 50 in October, 2015, I promise myself that I will be in the best possible shape by then.
I have three absolutely incredible children who are just starting to sort out their own path in life and I want to be here for a very long time to enjoy watching their journey and, hopefully, that of their children.
So, now another countdown starts, 4 more days :)
I've had my Endoscopy and everything was fine, and I've also had my ultrasounds on my liver and pancreas and I dare say I will hear about those results when I see my surgeon on Wednesday. So, it's all systems go by the looks of things.
I can't stop thinking about it and the changes it's going to bring for me.
I can already feel my confidence growing and even the negative comments I am still receiving, thinly veiled with "but I do support you" comments, are not having any effect on me now. I am so determined.
My whole life I have let everyone else control me and lived for everyone else, don't get me wrong, there were occasions where I put myself first, but very few and far between, it's not how I was raised. Where did it get me? Walked over and taken for granted.
That won't be happening any more. I'm slowly but surely taking back my power. I have always been great at empowering others and encouraging others, well now it's time to take a dose of my own medicine.
These are some photographs of me from the last couple of years. Reminders to myself of why I am going to put my body through this.
They don't show the painful part, the emotional reasons, they don't need to, I know that part inside. I have put on another 15kg since these were taken, then lost, then put on another 10 and so on it goes.
I turn 50 in October, 2015, I promise myself that I will be in the best possible shape by then.
I have three absolutely incredible children who are just starting to sort out their own path in life and I want to be here for a very long time to enjoy watching their journey and, hopefully, that of their children.
So, now another countdown starts, 4 more days :)
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