Well, haven't I been slack! I can't believe I have ignored my blog for so long, still, it really is more just a record of how I have gone more for myself and my family I guess, not interesting to the rest of the world lol
So, now I am venturing on to another life journey. This one should be very interesting indeed.
As most would know, with a concoction of drugs in my system over the years, along with depression and anxiety, lack of hormones etc, etc, blah blah, I have gained an incredible amount of weight! So much so that I am now in a situation where I am uncomfortable doing the most minor things and I don't sleep well so I'm tired all day and blah blah, on it goes in it's self consuming vicious little circle.
Well, after much research, soul searching and discussions with my GP I have opted for gastric surgery. WOW! I can hear the gasps and "don't do it's" from here!
This is my journey, my world and my future I am thinking about. Nobody else will be going through it and nobody else knows how I feel or what I am going through day to day. And, in the end, it is my decision.
My weight gain has made it difficult for my surgery to heal well and so I am still in constant pain and discomfort, so much so I often just feel like crawling into a hole and pulling a lid over. There are many people out there who are in constant pain through Fibro etc and they really can't do much about their pain, and I truly feel for them. But I have options and choices and ways out of this pain and I intend to do it. I intend to make myself feel better and be pain free.
I have opted to go with the Gastric Sleeve idea. It is done laproscopically and is only a couple of nights in hospital. The difference between this operation and others is that this is permanent and doesn't need to be fiddled with afterward :)
Many gastric surgeries in the past have had countless horror stories and experiences follow them so it has taken me a very long time to come to this decision but it is now made and on the 10th of October I will see the Gastric specialist for my very first visit. I'm definitely not looking forward to a fluid diet for a week before surgery because, being such a large eater, I just know I'm going to be the bitch from hell......................oh weight, situation normal................ ;) .............. and, yes, I did deliberately use that 'weight' rather than 'wait'.
So, soon I will start taking measurements and weights and disgusting pictures and will start keeping track of this new part of my journey.
I always said I want to be in the best shape possible by my 50th in October 2015. So, now I am making positive steps to have this dream met :)
I know this is a drastic measure to many and many who read this will not agree with me, but, do you know what, this is my body and I am doing this for me :) it is a simple (albeit cheating) means to an end. The hidden benefit is that after surgery, if my depression doesn't die down quickly enough, I won't be able to binge :) and that is a huge win for me in my eyes.
So, you can either support me or not, I don't mind really because I'm not doing this for you :)
Love and Light
So, now I am venturing on to another life journey. This one should be very interesting indeed.
As most would know, with a concoction of drugs in my system over the years, along with depression and anxiety, lack of hormones etc, etc, blah blah, I have gained an incredible amount of weight! So much so that I am now in a situation where I am uncomfortable doing the most minor things and I don't sleep well so I'm tired all day and blah blah, on it goes in it's self consuming vicious little circle.
Well, after much research, soul searching and discussions with my GP I have opted for gastric surgery. WOW! I can hear the gasps and "don't do it's" from here!
This is my journey, my world and my future I am thinking about. Nobody else will be going through it and nobody else knows how I feel or what I am going through day to day. And, in the end, it is my decision.
My weight gain has made it difficult for my surgery to heal well and so I am still in constant pain and discomfort, so much so I often just feel like crawling into a hole and pulling a lid over. There are many people out there who are in constant pain through Fibro etc and they really can't do much about their pain, and I truly feel for them. But I have options and choices and ways out of this pain and I intend to do it. I intend to make myself feel better and be pain free.
I have opted to go with the Gastric Sleeve idea. It is done laproscopically and is only a couple of nights in hospital. The difference between this operation and others is that this is permanent and doesn't need to be fiddled with afterward :)
Many gastric surgeries in the past have had countless horror stories and experiences follow them so it has taken me a very long time to come to this decision but it is now made and on the 10th of October I will see the Gastric specialist for my very first visit. I'm definitely not looking forward to a fluid diet for a week before surgery because, being such a large eater, I just know I'm going to be the bitch from hell......................oh weight, situation normal................ ;) .............. and, yes, I did deliberately use that 'weight' rather than 'wait'.
So, soon I will start taking measurements and weights and disgusting pictures and will start keeping track of this new part of my journey.
I always said I want to be in the best shape possible by my 50th in October 2015. So, now I am making positive steps to have this dream met :)
I know this is a drastic measure to many and many who read this will not agree with me, but, do you know what, this is my body and I am doing this for me :) it is a simple (albeit cheating) means to an end. The hidden benefit is that after surgery, if my depression doesn't die down quickly enough, I won't be able to binge :) and that is a huge win for me in my eyes.
So, you can either support me or not, I don't mind really because I'm not doing this for you :)
Love and Light
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